2 Days till D-Day.

Packing done, well almost. Left with chargers and several other pins. This blog here will be my daily "diary", so i'll just unload everything here at the end of the day while i'm on the atachment. To be very honest, in a day i'm leaving but it has been bugging me. Why am i doing this. Why am i going to Side effects, when i'm doing games, in school... I'm guessing i shouldn't be talking about this in my blog, but i think it would be good to be very honest.

The school prefers me to create a game and come back with a game with the experience i gain while over in USA, SESI. When i signed up for the programme, i wanted to learn animation, special effects, which might or might not have a relation to games. However, as the days get closer to leave day, I start to question myself... "What am i doing?". In short, my only straight answer is "I don't know". To be very honest i am not even sure why am i choosen. But never the less, i should make full use of my experience, time and money spent into the programme, and come up with something amazing, fantastic and wonderous. Open my mind wide, and learn as i go.

I know this might all seem very shady, but i have to reflect like this, being the only student from DET Games. not DET Technical Direction. What do i want to achieve out of this programme? I want to make an awesome piece of animation. Full-stop. I want to make something "mind blasting". But perhaps that might set the bar abit too high. We will see.

As you can see here from my first post, my internal conflicts in my head are still fighting and I don't really know what i am doing here. Unlike some of my peers that have set goals, habits and achievements, i'm going in with an empty mind, no habits as of yet and a variable goal.

So what is my goal? Like i said earlier, to make an animation. But to make full use of my time, i would also be making a game in my own spare time probably at night. For that, i won't talk much about in this blog. This blog will feature my own personal commentary on my experience there and lessons i have learnt and how stuff can get done.

With that i leave with a quote, "Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.", Maria Curie.